I have been SO bad at eating well lately and I have been drinking a lot. Whether it is just one beer or one glass of wine at night I really need to cut it out. I am 4-5lbs up from my lowest weight and haven’t seen my lowest weight in like a month which is terrible. I am going to go to NYC in 2 months. The worst part is, I feel gross. I need to stop eating chocolate everyday! Just because I work out everyday doesn’t mean I get to eat like a crazy person. I think (unfortunately) it is time to start logging food again. I mean, I say that but I never really do it. I really want to lose weight before my birthday. It’s kind of just like… how bad do I want it? Why can’t I just stay disciplined? Blah.
So this morning I actually woke up and did the 30 Day Shred. Miracle.
I was laying in bed thinking of how I could justify not getting up and doing it but then I was like “self. seriously? you are already awake. stop being so lazy and just do it”.
So I did. And it is a good thing too, because it is supposed to rain tonight. I want to try and get up every morning to do the 30 Day Shred.
I also need to get back on track with counting my points. I made chicken this morning and oatmeal. Enough to last me a few days. I also hard-boiled eggs last night because they are great snacks.
Breakfast: Smoothie with spinach, 1/2 apple, 1/2 banana, 1/2 peach, a tangerine and a scoop of protein powder. I use water instead of milk or juice for my liquid.
So My daily point allowance is 32. I ate 33 today BUT I did work out. I did some exercise on demand shows.
Today’s eating wasn’t horrible and I hope tomorrow will be better. I REALLY need a loss next week so I just need to keep up with logging all my points.
I keep forgetting to take pictures of what I eat.
BUT I have been tracking my points all day so at least there is THAT.
Sometimes I feel like I will never, ever reach my weight loss goals. Sometimes I just think maybe I don’t want it bad enough - because if I did I would just do it right?
And every day I wonder why all the greatest food has to be the worst.
Why can’t sugar be a “power” food too?
